ShiroKuro But I have never been able to recreate the true "shakes" during practicing or in any non-performance situation.
My heart starts pounding loud enough that it scares me sometimes. I haven't been able to replicate that. I have heard of one suggestion to run a few miles and then sit down at the piano and perform to try to mimic that feeling.
twocats I don't think think it was nerves from the crowd, just being in a totally different setting.
Yes!
Last summer at the Tonebase piano camp, I tried playing a couple of pieces in the recital. It was the first time I'd played for more than 3 people in 60+ years.
I had one rather egregious memory slip, out of which I eventually extracted myself. But the whole situation reminded me so much of what Josef Hofmann had to say about the reliability of memory.
https://www.beachbunnysoftware.com/music/JosefHofmann-DifferentPlaces.pdf
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Jane - expert on nothing with opinions on everything.
Jane But the whole situation reminded me so much of what Josef Hofmann had to say about the reliability of memory.
Someone suggested to me that I have my husband try to annoy me and distract me! While I don't think that would go well for our relationship, I think maybe I should shake things up, like play a loud and irritating TV show at the same time or something. It's interesting that Hofmann said that we memorize our surroundings, too. (We are in fact just like dogs!)
ranjit I've also thought of practicing performing with a "cough track" playing, or with pencil sounds on paper
It sounds like a variety of distractions could be beneficial!
pseudonym58 there is no substitute for just putting yourself in that position, well prepared, and hope for the best.
I think there's a lot of similarity between that and performing a solo on the piano with the exception that at least as a solo performer, no one else in the ensemble/company is relying on you!
So that's something positive.
It's good that you finally did find it easier! It must be terrifying to be paid to play and to be so stressed.
Every time someone asks if I'm a pro I laugh and say thankfully not, because the stress would probably kill me! In chamber music I don't want to let my ensemble down but we're all just amateurs. In the worst case if I bomb a solo piano thing the only impact is to my ego 
I have actually practised with the radio on, but I could too easily ignore its chattering...
ranjit I have heard of one suggestion to run a few miles and then sit down at the piano and perform to try to mimic that feeling.
It is interesting, because you'll play with a pounding heart. However, what if you mess up badly in that situation? Would it make matters worse?
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Animisha It is interesting, because you'll play with a pounding heart. However, what if you mess up badly in that situation? Would it make matters worse?
I donāt think so. The idea is to experience playing despite the physical reactions.
In my experience, when Iāve had a performance that hasnāt gone well due to nerves and shaking hands, and then had another performance soon after, the second one always goes better. This happened to me last November, when I played in the (mostly kids) recital held by my piano school, and then two weeks later I played at the concert at the retirement center.
These two performances where the first time Iād played in a truly public recital since before the pandemic. And even though Iāve played publicly a lot, I somehow donāt retain the feeling of shaky hands very long, so the first recital, I just couldnāt get control of my shaky hands. For the second one, I think I was just less surprised by the feeling.
So back to your question, @Animisha , I would think that the thing to do would be to do the āpounding heartā practice more than once, not in the same practice session, but a few times over the course of a week. Then if it goes badly the first time, you have a few more chances with it.
twocats Today I went to a super casual playing event at someone's home, and on the drive over I imagined myself walking up onto a big stage and I got pretty bad anxiety just from the imagery! And then when I played my piece (not a difficult one) I was so thrown off by the bright lights and the unfamiliar piano that I played a whole bunch of wrong notes. I don't think think it was nerves from the crowd, just being in a totally different setting.
I remember playing at my grandmother's 108th birthday party at the assisted living facility where she lived. I found the very loud air conditioning extremely distracting. Then at one of the most difficult passages I had practiced endlessly, more than the rest of that piece combined, one of the residents yelled "How was the meatloaf tonight Sam?"
pianoloverus Then at one of the most difficult passages I had practiced endlessly, more than the rest of that piece combined, one of the residents yelled "How was the meatloaf tonight Sam?"
You didn't finish the story! Did you bomb it?
Also, wow, 108 years old!!
twocats I didn't bomb it but it wasn't ideal either. Then there was another time when I said "Now I'll play I'm in the mood for love" and some old guy in the back yelled out "You bet we are".
Hahahaha! That almost sounds like something out of a Marx movie... you know, capt. Spaulding: "Signor Ravelli's first selection will be 'Somewhere My Love Lies Sleeping' with a male chorus."
ShiroKuro I would think that the thing to do would be to do the āpounding heartā practice more than once, not in the same practice session, but a few times over the course of a week. Then if it goes badly the first time, you have a few more chances with it.
I did it! I could only "cross" for seven minutes because I am not quite recovered from my cold, but I played a piece with pounding heart. Actually, the heart was not a problem at all, I wasn't bothered by it at all, and I breathed freely. But my fingers were shaking and I had a bad memory lapse - just suddenly, no idea what comes next. I'll check that memory lapse later today, to work at that spot.
Maybe next time I should combine the pounding heart from the workout with holding my breath for an even more realistic imitation of mental and physical stress!
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@Animisha ok, wow! I definitely need to try this then, because those shaky hands is exactly what happens when I have my worst performance anxiety experience. So practicing like that would probably really help me.
BTW what is ācrossā? Something like cross training?
Iām thinking what Iāll do is get the piano all set, with my sheet music out etc., then go down to the basement, get on the exercise bike and pedal like crazy to get out of breath, then run back upstairs and start playing as quickly as possibleā¦. That should do it, right
ShiroKuro BTW what is ācrossā? Something like cross training?
Animisha I have a cold, but the moment it is over and I am crossing away on my cross trainer again
I am sorry, I should have been more clear!
ShiroKuro Iām thinking what Iāll do is get the piano all set, with my sheet music out etc., then go down to the basement, get on the exercise bike and pedal like crazy to get out of breath, then run back upstairs and start playing as quickly as possibleā¦. That should do it, right
Yes, that is basically how I did it! Take care though that you don't stumble on the stairs. The panting, pounding heart and shaking fingers take some time to calm down, so there is no need to stress.
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After joining a Piano Commons and voicing my concerns that nerves may shorten my lifespan, my teacher explained that playing a piece isn't about me, it all about the music. Once I am comfortable with all the aspects of the piece, I practice incessantly for 2 or 3 weeks. No talking during the performance, ie "Ooops" "Aargh" or favorite cuss word, always get the last chord right, smile when you stand up regardless and remember - its about the music.
Works for me.
pianoloverus I guess when you're dealing with an audience who is likely to be both hard of hearing and suffering from various degrees of dementia, you are performing for them, and it's not really a question of how well you play. I've played music at nursing homes and assisted living facilities, and the audience in general is almost always appreciative.
Don't stumble, trip?
Tell me about it! I once played the Haydn D major cello concerto with an orchestra. As I was walking out onto the stage the top of my cello (the peg box) struck the side of the stage's proscenium arch. The cello was knocked completely out of tune, and although I was able to tune it (offstage), the strings did not stabilize and maintain their pitch for the entirety of the performance. A thoroughly miserable experience.
