Sophia In summary, rather than forcing myself to push through, I get my motivation from realizing it's just a hobby and no one is standing over me with a whip.
I used to push myself to get better just like ranjit (maybe to a less extreme extent) and sure I achieved quite a lot of improvement but it burned me out. Now I'm like you and just play for enjoyment. It certainly does help that I've been doing this for a while so I can already play some of my dream pieces but I don't stress about it if some pieces remain out of reach.